Hello there, uhm, how is the weather there, good? yeah same here but weather has seen better days, but it is what it is. So i had some time to waste to write this, but thinking about it... Idk what to write, this is not dating app that i put some of my stats and what i like and hate. It just doesnt feel right to spill out stats shortly like i am a product in a shop. What do i write then? hmmm.... You know what? I will just write random thoughts here and see where i end, a bit of an adventure, ridding the waves mannnn. Ok lets go?
So my earliest memory was playing shrek 2 on my old grandmas pc, idk i was like 2-3 years old at the time i dont really remember much but i do remember being scared at one part where you had to dodge balls that if you got hit were pushed to pit of doom, i had too much skill issue and couldnt pass it, and was always terrified.
Second game was ofc...CS.1.6 good old game...
While after my father brought PS2 and Wii from America with few games.One game that i played every day and night was Grand Turismo 4...such a good game.... (also whoever made ps2 error noise and animation when disc is corrupted, you gave me nightmares....)
around 2011-12 i started playing World of Tanks and League of Legends, and played both for quite a while (still very much sometimes i still play world of tanks).Those were the days when both of the games were good, but community was and still is toxic.
Big turnpoint was when i discovered steam and had 2 games...tf2 and hearts of iron 4.tf2 was always a funny side game, hoi4 was main one....Think i got them around 2017-2018 (jesus time flies). With hoi4 and other paradox games, i spent playing them till early 2022. During those years playing paradox games i made a lot of great friends and people and if some of you are reading this, thanks for everything. But also i and all of us were tryharding and most of them were toxic, so in early 2022 i left that community. Note i was still playing some other games during 2017-2018, but main game was all paradox games. So after that i was in a bit of a vacum state, i wasnt in any community and well i had to look to join one, no pressure though, slow and steady wins the race. Now i tried many games that i had see where i like it and who knows what happenes, i was fine as it is, but its always nice to be part of community. And during 2022 till 2024 i discovered Tf2 Otaku ze server. Why i joined that community, idk it doesnt make any sense, but it happened and i met great people. If any of you are reading (i am suprised you didnt think too long to read, bruh moment), you are a great person and i am glad i met you. One special thanks is to Adam, he helped me a lot with joining community and meeting even more people who are all awsome. So now i mostly play tf2, games with friends, sim racing games (passion i re-discovered in 2022) and also other random games when i have time.
So who am I? Thats a really good question. Idk if i can even answer it. I mean who are you?A human, AI, Among us, idk, do you know? Hmmmm, i was thinking for a bit, lets go from start. I was born and still live in a small cursed place called Balkans, in a country named Serbia (no, its not Siberia/Syria (yes people sometimes mistake that)). Was born in 2001,Jesus time flies, stop the time! If you didnt by now somehow hear my thick slavic accent, i am a man, and always be. I am also Orthodox a bit, the religion was always a bit in my family, and it will stay like that (religion is a nice thing if you dont take it too serious, you can find purpose of your life in there). I am not gonna lie, i like playing games (i know shocking!), but its not all about games, its about living and enjoying it.Have fun working, studying, fixing, cleaning,cooking,driving,reading,hiking,going to gym....Its not always easy....its not supposed to be easy, but I and everybody else, always try to improve, earn money to live, and have a good life that you wanted to live (but be realistic, nobody here is a king or a queen, or will be remembred for something in history like finding cure for cancer, we are all just normal plebs, in this cruel world trying to survive, we only have 1 life (in theory), so make the most out of it.
I think i got sidetracked here, what was i even talking about? Lets look up a bit....ah yes about me. So yeah i work a bit, study a bit, and learn a bit, its more complicated but for legal reasons i wont say what i "work" "a bit", but i like learning new stuff, like for example....new cooking recepies, or trying out new food, or fixing cars, sinks, gardening, whatever really (if you dont know how to clean stuff then uhhhhh, learn it?). I also enjoy hiking and any sport activity (when i was younger i played tennis a lot), and go to gym (no pain, no gain). I cant really say my traits, its not that i cant, but it would be biased a bit if i rated myself with traits that define me. Though i find myself that i really have skill issue in 2 things, learning new language, and fully understanding electronics (like understanding fully pc/tv, and being able to do quick repairs on it, or code on pc i just cant and wont). Luckily for me i speak English but only because everything today on internet is on English, if it wasnt for that i wouldnt speak it (heck i even studied German for 8 years and i didnt remember much if at all). One thing that might suprise some people, I never watched anime and never will. Idk its just not for me, i dont have other explenation, did i try it? yes and i didnt enjoy it. Will i try it again someday? No. Does that mean that you shouldnt watch it? If you like anime, watch it, in your free time do what you like doing, i am not gonna think anything bad of you if you watch anime or have any anime profile pic, your life your choice, and i respect it. You may then ask, how the hell did i join ze otaku community? Now thats a good question, but i do have answer. If i knew what otaku meant (i still dont know what it means but i have some suspicion) when i was looking for community, i probably wouldnt have joined it. But i didnt know what it mean, and i met some great people in there so yeah....interesting story, but i am glad i joined and stayed in that community. We are all different people, but that wont make it impossible to make friends, and you can learn new stuff and hear other people perspective.
Some people say that I am crazy. Maybe I am....But let me then ask you,what is normal? My only explanation that something is normal if society accepts it, something that is expected. If that is what is normal, then ♥♥♥♥ it, I do not want to be normal. I will be who I am, and i will know until last breath that I did everything that i wanted, and didnt do things i didnt want to, good or bad. Yes I do know i have to work and i work, but I also enjoy working for the sake of making money, and with that money to do what I want. People are like, why dont you want to have kids(I would rather be dead), or why did you spend money on this instead of that....Why did you do this...Or sometimes people say i do not logical, normal stuff. And do you know what? I dont care much honestly,I mean i will always listen what they have to say, its never a bad thing, but in the end I am only loyal to myself, my entire life has been like that, i always honored my feelings, even if they are wrong, to be true myself, and in the end to love myself. Because in the end, you only have yourself, and learning to love yourself is important, as whats the point of a life if you hate it? Life is already cruel, dont make it harder on yourself by hating yourself. You can wish and change yourself always, but never lose that small fire in your heart that makes you keep moving every day.
Edit: Jesus, Alcohol is really something when writing whatever this is, but honestly i will leave it be, I kinda like it now. Look, have a nice and good life. I know you can do it!