max..
Georgia, United States
 
 
Milla...




























everyday I feel like killing myself... My mind just reminds me I should... and I can't do anything about it...
I prayed and asked for help for so many months now.. and I know I cannot possibly continue in life after so much happened in such a small amount of time, but I dunno when I should kill myself...










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I'm not afraid of what will happen to me, anymore... Life has shown me the most horrible things I've ever seen..
If you stop existing, it's fine. That's the game... It happens. You won't be the first or the last person to clock-out.. Sh!t happens, you messed up your time-line and made the wrong choices; you could've *been someone*... but atleast I'm no longer anxious about "leaving", here, anymore.. Whatever happens, happens... I mean, I literally have nobody here anymore to even give a ♥♥♥♥... I'm a number.


... But damn, man... the fact I just keep failing... I was never meant to be someone in the first place...
if this is the last time I'm on here, then peace out, everyone. If I ever said I love you, I meant that sh*t





























































































































names: Max, Exara, and now oddz, yo
im back and ♥♥♥♥
Edit: 8/7/22 - Damn, I wish I still had my 2018 Murder friends from cG... crazy how time passes... If you aren't active in the moment, four years will pass and you will feel you have nothing to show for it... and it feels like it, ngl.... Life hit me hard af.

































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max.. 17 Nov, 2024 @ 7:02pm 
Damn... the people who were closest to me, hurt me more than anyone else...
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max.. 29 Apr, 2024 @ 11:26pm 
I'm killing myself before my birthday, which is May 11...
If you have anything to say to me, say it.... I won't be here forever to answer it.
max.. 5 Jun, 2023 @ 6:43am 
It would've been six years...
max.. 10 May, 2023 @ 10:18pm 
12:00 AM... May 11...
Happy Birthday to me... I'm 25... I'd say something dreary and depressing as all f*ck... but..
Idk... Even as sad as me wishing my own birthday to myself... alone--- appears to me...
Maybe, things will get better... I'm at my worst right now, but I'm hopeful things will get better..
1:17 AM ... Couldn't find a resolution to this comment. Ima just leave as this, because I just... I don't know what else to say besides maybe things will get better...
max.. 10 May, 2023 @ 5:33am 
Tomorrow is my birthday. And it's going to probably be my saddest day ever...
Just gonna be alone and suicidal... nobody's gonna even think of me.... not even her....
Everytime I try and do it , I puss out.... and I'm just waiting for someone to say "please don't do it.." or someone to just.. give a ♥♥♥♥.