Hey everyone I just wanted to say that I will quit Twitch. I'm so dumb I shouldn't have started anything I'm so sorry. I'm just not okay emotionally right now and It takes too much out of me. I just feel sad tired and weak and I can't even sleep at nights. I just feel like I will never be good enough for anybody I just feel so deppresed and alone. I'm just too damaged and I feel like a burden to everybody and ik everyone has they own ♥♥♥♥ to deal with and life is not easy. ik it's called growth we're all learning we're all getting older we are not getting younger so when you can find that one person that you can count on and who makes you happy no matter what just promise me Don't let that person get away I promise it will get better one day.

No one knows but I've been at my lowest for weeks now but I still make sure everyone else is okay before I even start to think about myself. Ik I always get picked last and I feel lost maybe I'm not good enough. Sometimes you're just not okay but I try survive everyday and I try smile more often but we are all fighting our own demons and only few people can make me smile or laugh in this ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up world that we're living. I feel like I'm constantly fighting a war inside of my head every single day while silently winning those battles no one knows anything about. Because I chose not to show my darkest moments. if that's not exhausting I don't know what is. So keep making progress even if it goes unrecognized and remind yourself that so far your track record for getting through bad days is 100% and that is pretty daamn good. Never Give Up! you're fighter and I'm proud of you all. Take it easy <3

Nobody ever tells you that Emptiness weighs the most. So if one day someone opens up to you and lets you in, promise me never ever break that person heart. Be nice for each others cause you don't know what's behind their smile. and remember even just a small things can change someone's day better or worst.

Sometimes, all you can do is lie in bed listening music, and hope to fall asleep before you fall apart. Behind every sweet smile there is a bitter sadness that no one can ever see or feel. When you’re happy you enjoy the music but when you’re sad you understand the lyrics. The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness it's also keeping out the joy.

The most ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up part about depression is when you meet the right person you start getting that amazing feeling that you can finally start smiling again but you're just too afraid because they make you feel so good and you don't wanna ♥♥♥♥ up anything and you haven't felt joy for so long time and you've built your walls around you. So you start overthinking about everything and you don't wanna lose that person but somehow you still start to feel like am I good enough or just a burden. Sometimes I wish I could just run away with someone somewhere so far away from everything. Dance with me lets make our own melody together. Hold me close and say that You do matter to me.