I walk through this world
With God by my side
And the devil in my shadow
Trying to tempt me
Trying to kill me
I resist
But he still comes

I've lived
Through things you wouldn't believe
Sins you couldn't conceive
Some would bend a weaker man
Right over backwards and into his grave
Or seal his lips forever
Too afraid to speak or live on

I like to see how far this vessel can take me
I like to find the point it begs me
To give up to turn back
I like the trees to bend and sway over top me
I like the snow to conceal the tracks that brought me
I like to wonder if I'll get lost forever
I like to wonder if I'll ever make it back to comfort

I like to feel the pain consume me
In my back in my legs
Every muscle in my body writhing
Begging me to turn over give up
I love to wonder
Whether I'm truly still even alive
'Living isn't living if your not close to dying'

I like to feel deaths hand cross me
I like to see the light coming about me
I like to feel it wash over me
The warmth the fear
That shiver down the spine
That lifts the hairs on the back of my neck
I like for Him to reach down and pull me out

I like to find a human slipping
In tongue or mentally
I like to confront him face to face
Argue it out til there is no talk left in him
Then chop him up til his nothing
More than ash and dust
Back to thy earth from whence he came from

Shoot it out if we have to
Gain cover and concealment
I'll come closer by fire and maneuver
Slip up behind you whilst you are sleeping
Prove to you your Creator exist in you
And send you to your knees in front Him
Begging for some grace some forgiveness from Him

Nothing you'll find in me if you cross me
I'm not the man to tempt sway or hurt
I'll teach you lessons
You've never been taught
I'll show you things
You never knew existed
Send you home with fears and torments

Praying to God
Like never before
Begging Him
For Mercy
Protection
Grace
Just some relief

But just another day
For me
I'll sleep fine
With your screams in my head
With your blood on my hands
With your shame and guilt
Wrapped around me like a trophy

I'll get inside your woman's head
I'll make her become my own
I'll raise your kids
Better than you've ever even wished before
You'll threaten buck up
Then beg and plead
But I'll still sleep soundly comfy relieved

Yet I need absolutely no one
To live to survive to thrive
I've been lone since
The day I was born
I don't need your whining
Don't need your comfort
Or your guidance

So if I choose you
Feel lucky
Feel happy
Feel glad
Cause you are were gifted
But hold fast onto it
Don't lose it let it slip

Because a man
Like me is hard
Hardened by a lifetime of pain
Twisted by a lifetime of choices
Set and unmoving
Adopt or
Move on

Or risk raising that shadow
Watch it consume me
Feel my 46 consume me and rise against you
Lay waste to your brain
And mop the floor with you
Give you a tongue lashing
Hotter than the fires that burn below

You can never become me
But you can look up to
Learn from
And try to
Or keep wasting your life away
As a weakling an Omega
As I will always be your Alpha