Emotionally: I'm done.
Mentally:I'm drained.
Spirtually: I feel dead
Physically: I smile.



Family: OH MY GOD CAN YOU EVER DO ANYTHING RIGHT!!!!


School: You will never be smart enough to achieve anything


Friends: Oh my God you're so depressed


Job: You don't look happy. You need change your job.


Mirror: They’re never going to love you if you look like that.

awful
disgusting
eerie
ghoulish
macabre
menacing
sinister
terrifying
horrible
gruesome
unpleasant


i do the same fu .cking sh .it every day. Everyday feels like sunday
i can't escape. My mind is sick my mind is fu .cking sick.
I am not satisfied with anything
i do not care about progressing in my life. through out my life i care about
other people who did not care about me. No one truly cares anyway.
life is just a waste of time. even though my family
say they care deep down they do not friends will come and go.
you know my fu .cking life is a joke and im truly
lost in life. its getting lost stressful and crazy now but still im lost
i see the fake humans and their fake smiles with their fake
love. ill fu .cking kill all of them. i am not crazy i truly am not
the only reason i am alive is because of the people who care there for me
when i say crying desperately for help help help my

I wish I didn't have to be alone. I wish I had someone to call my own. I wish I had someone who is loyal, and would stick with me, not stick a knife in my back and then blame me. I wish someone would take a chance on me, and let me show them how special they would be to me. I wish I had someone who cared about my thoughts and my feelings, not someone who would try to use my caring and loving nature to manipulate me. I try my best to make that special someone happy, and I want someone who would try to do the same. I wish someone loved me. But because of my insecurities and fears, my depression and tears, I'm not good enough. I'm doomed to always be alone, to always feel this unbearable pain. My chest hurts, and it's hard for me to breathe. I have no energy, and I can hardly sleep. I wish I could leave all this behind. I'm so close to giving up, and yet no one pays me any mind. I wish I had someone to pick me up, lift me up out of this deep hole I've dug. I wish I didn't have to be alone.