this game makes me hate monkees

Update:i have now played 3.2k hours on this game i am starting to see people watching me sleep and in the refection of my monitor. i hear voices 24/7 but i think that's normal right ? right?
the shadows i see are tall all black with no face.
Every time i close my eyes at night to sleep i teleport into a ranked game and see everything like i am playing but actually there the sound of thermites charge echos in my head as i watch my fellow brothers get shot in between the eyes i hear flashing being thrown in causing me to be blind. i have random jumps at work and at home of Blitz and Monte rushing me blinded and touching me just like my uncle.....


i gotta go this shadow behind me is getting closer and closer the voices are getting louder!!!!!!!