Today, after hitting the 1000 hour mark, I asked myself a burning question, "Why is it that I haven't improved since the ~500 hour mark?" Well, I finally know what it is. Fear. How often do you jump into a deathmatch and just go absolutely ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ crazy and just ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ destroy the opposition? If you're like me that will be quite often. Then, you get together with your 'M9s' and go into a competitive and you get absolutely hammered by the opposition, why? Well I think it's something along the lines of the inability of your brain to cope with the fact that if you die, you won't be able to play for a while, and therefore in the face of death, you tend to freak out. So is my inability to noscope in matchmaking just because i'm crap, or is it because of fear? What comes with fear, is safety, not risk. Thanks for reading <3