Well for those few close friends of mine on here. (if you think that you fall in that you probably do) After nearly 7 years of living in darkness I have finally overcome it. For the ones that helped me almost everyday for years, THANK YOU!..(again if you think you are in that category, You are.) You guys accepted me when I was at my lowest times and doing so helped me not give up. (suicide or OD was a daily thought for years) Anyways im now married and have three wonderful kids and a fourth on the way, All are truly blessings. They give me perseverance to always try to better myself. It took a good chunk of time and one misguided relationship until my Soulmate came into my life. Wouldnt change anything though it was worth it. Long Story Short GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME, AND YOU NEED TO LOVE WHO YOU ARE. so that you arent relying on another for YOUR happiness.