do you wince saying my name like a bad word? do you still listen to our songs? have you shown it to him yet? do you play minecraft with him? you told me you wouldn't be able to play again if we split. you said you would never leave me and i'd be your love forever. you were my baby. i wonder if you get to call him that. i'm still your love. i'm here waiting if you'd like to come back. you hung your scarf on my ribs when you came back to me in june, please come back for it. it's tied around my lungs and choking me slowly. i wish it was around my heart to stop it beating. i don't want blood that's not been loved by you. it hurts to be alive without you. you carved a keyhole in my chest and only your key fits. it hurts to live knowing there's no future where i'll return home to your warmth and we'll look at rings in a couple magazine. i love you as i did in august, i crave you like i did in may. does he know you as i did? will you let him know you further?