I make miserable mistakes millions of times,
It's more terrible, on top of each offense,
A just trial judging my for my crimes
I'm in denial, dreading the day with nothing to say in my defense

I'll forever wish I did things differently in those days,
And I'll never forgive myself for being a failure from now on,
The burning bridges have too left me in a blaze,
and the hurting has left all hope for my soul gone.

Forever falling in an abominable abyss,
Endlessly spawning sin and temptations at every turn.
The world where I departed from was a bliss
But down here I can already feel hell's burn

I lust for the lamp that leads me home,
The heavenly light that beats hell's fires.
While on these roads I endlessly roam,
I'll dream of nothing more than these desires.

The distractions and directionlessness drives me further away,
I begin beseeching the beacon to bring me back.
Dreading as the light dims more every day.
Slogging through the sins which cause me to slack.

As the light fades, I feel nothing but pain,
Even going forward, I'm getting nowhere.
My true colors are showing I've gone insane,
Embracing only despair.