Realize, that you are THE problem and you have a serious troubles with your emotions and personal life. Your two friends who agree with you on every base are equally corrupted, so you have built an mirage of a friendship which is in fact a nest of toxicity. It is however not to late for your young lifes to seek for a solution from this hard and probably devastating for your parents situation. With some professional help from psychotherapist there is a chance for you to function in a society and be accepted by other people in your age. Wish you all the best in the future and I cross my finger for your sad life to get better.