Today marks the day that I leave TF2... many things lead up to this, and the two largest being A, depression... every time i play, i just feel... lost, like nothing i do is ever good enough... and like i'll never get past the things that have me stuck... that i keep making the same mistakes time and time again with no way of getting past them... It makes me feel pathetic... like i don't deserve to be where i am, like i'm just some moron who doesn't belong among the people i'm among...

The second reason is this... the person who brought my interest to TF2, STAR_ himself, seems to be moving away from TF2... it's been a dream of mine, as many of you likely know, to face STAR_... to test myself against him and maybe one day be as good as he is... he's the player that i've built up everything on my tf2 playstyle around... His videos taught me how to rocket jump and how to overall play the game... and with him leaving, it feels like all of my goals since day 1 are just... gone... and without the person who taught me how to play around, i feel more lost than ever before... which brings me to today.

I leave group ownership to TweakRusherZ, a skilled player and trader and likely a better leader for this group than i could be. If you all want to continue on as Team Crimson Flame, that's up to you... but as of now, i cannot bring myself to stay in this team or in TF2. too many things are driving me away.

And to all of my friends who walked this path with me, everyone who helped me accomplish what little i've managed... I thank you... and I am so... so very sorry. I hope that you guys can forgive me for this... Because from here, all that's left to say to Team Crimson Flame and TF2, the game which took up so much of my time and held so much of my esteem and love is... Goodbye.

-Thaeldonius